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[correctiveshoes621]

Waaah, waah, waah.
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I hate being uneducated. I hate being stupid. Or, moreso, being 'paperless'.

I hate when people just assume that I went to college, and the look on their faces when I tell them I didn't.

I hate not having good stories to tell about dormrooms and lectures or whatever the hell college-educated people talk about. As I said, I wouldn't know.

Sure, there's the fact that neither Robert Smith nor peter gabriel went to college. But it doesn't change the fact that the rest of the world HAS, and with them? I'd have nothing to talk about..nothing of import or wit or value to add.

It's all I've ever had, really. My brain. It was my THING, being 'smart' ('cos my sister 'got the looks') - skipping a grade and winning scholarships and all that bullshit..but, now - at this age, it's caught up to me - and it's driven home to me DAILY how pathetically unwrinkled, stomach-turningly smooth my brain has become, by comparison.

And OH, HELL, YEAH; I hate the MOST ironic fact that the one person I really, really admire came from a privileged, yuppie, private-schools-into-college background - which is exactly what I MARRIED - and RUINED MY LIFE...and told me endlessly to just forget becoming educated and being more than..well, more than THIS.

I couldn't even hold a conversation with this person. Not, really.

OH, and 'O the Irony' #572?

If I TRIED to go back? If I TRIED to become 'educated'?




I'd fuckin' *BE* Jerri Blank. And that makes me sick to my stomach.

...and even Chuck Noblet is smarter than me. What's THAT tellya?





I get SO SO SICK of women at work who yammer on endlessly about their kids, their kids, this great recipe for whatnot and their kids..."Little Braden did this..and little Chelsea did that..", and wonder why they think that THAT is the ONLY thing that they've ever done of import and is THEREFORE...ALL THERE IS.

I mean, even cockroaches can procreate. I did. Twice. But I just can't imagine that there isn't MORE.

It's the only thing I've ever wanted. To be MORE.



...and then? I talked to Bev on the phone. Who's going through chemo for third-stage Hodgkins. And feel even WORSE.

The NERVE of me.

So, PLEASE. No sympathy.

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[fnordine.livejournal.com]

I would like to point I have no college degree either.

And I went to China, lived one year on my own, my english is pretty good and... I feel I achieved more than my degree bearing friends ever would.

No, I don't wanna go back to college. I don't feel like I'm learning anything there.

Yes, I'm going back. 10 years later, but I need the damn paper.

Just pisses me off that I'm smarter than most people in the building.

[indiwise.livejournal.com]

You fuckin' GO, grrl. I would LOVE to hear about China. Sincerely, and not just because of the Olympics. And your english is excellent - better than most Americans.

BUT GAH. YES. THE PIECE OF PAPER.

And I know that I'm at least 'average' in intelligence; I was just whiny and pissy because of GAH. I mean, LOOK at who I revere. GAH. I sure can pick 'em ;)

[fnordine.livejournal.com]

Well, it seems I score off the charts. No, not really. XD But if I was just a bit more intelligent (or what people perceive as inteligent), I would be on Mensa. :P

I used to say I'm too smart to see the point on going to college. (Yes, my ego is that big, why? XD XD XD You should already know, I'm a Keith Fan! XD)

I'm totally going to wipe my ass with my diploma, then ask for another one. Seriously.

*giggle* I can relate. I mean... Keith, right? :P Funny thing is that we both were lazy students, spending most of our times at home watching Monty Python. I just didn't have the strength to stay :P

Oh, Something I thought of saying before: I love Jerri for the fact she is willing to 'do it all again'. If you want to, for whatever reason you have, do it. Better regret doing something than not doing it, that's how I live :)

(Of course, Jerri is something else, so, you would be getting the best of her ;D)

China. The best of the times and the worst of the times. I loved every minute... Heh. I should tell you my adventures, both around here and in China. Would make you see me in a different light. ;)

Let's get together in im some day, me, you and Gaya... I'll tell you gals everything :D

[indiwise.livejournal.com]

>>Let's get together in im some day, me, you and Gaya... I'll tell you gals everything :D

I'm in! :D