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Just when you thought that things couldn't get any weirder..

As I was bending over to see the Sid pictures Gaya had found with the Slits a little closer just now; I noticed a slight movement out of the corner of my eye.

I jumped up, cussing, brushing myself all over.

There was a huge fucking grey spider righhhht on my left boob.

Its position on my teeshirt was RIGHT on Sid's face.

Oh, so not funny.

I have no idea where the bastard landed, as our freakin' carpeting is grey. Now, I itch all over, like.

ETA: OH, I KILLED THAT MOTHERFUCKER SO DEAD. IT HAD THE *NERVE* TO COME CRAWLING 'CROSS THE COFFEETABLE, RIGHT FOR ME. OMG.

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Ew. All over my address/phone book.

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I am just really relieved.

Things are just so fucking incredibly complicated, sometimes. I am ashamed of my anger, but it was born of absolute frozen panic and pain.

December of last year, I was in the same sinking boat, and she just happened to be in the neighborhood for the ROTK Premiere to pull my ass out of the drink. She had given me a strong dose of Tough Love over the pc a time or two, as well..when I was just this fucking gushing open wound.

I *know* the place she was in; well enough to draw up a map. The only difference is, I have a tendency to rail and bleed and carry on and write and write and write..and she builds an impenetrable wall.

It must have been my fucking ego..to be so angry and hurt that she did not try to share any of these burdens with me. Pride. Plain and simple. Selfish pride.

I am so sorry. Now you all know what a fucking creep I can be.

I gotta go see Pete. Laters.