Reason #998217.36 I hate Facebook

[correctiveshoes621]

"And then, 'Bare', by the Cure, came on my iPod."

I really am still recovering from the past almost thirty fucking years. I can pretend that it never happened - better, still? Pretend that I had no hand in it. Go on seeking numb..Go on, seeking redemption; sure. Just go on doing whatever you gotta fucking DO to go on, just DO it; just GO ON and shut UP about it, already. I'm sorry; just so fucking sorry - but I will NEVER forget ANY of it, and that's probably what will kill me, eventually. Yep. Still a bit of a gaping wound about it; yeah. Still so fucking monumentally messed up. LiEk, to my very core. It was, what? Three years ago, on the third.

Shock. Surprise.

How fucking dare you take The Cure from me, too?!? You bastard.

All this was brought to you by the innocent query by a long-former, barely-known classmate who looked at my profile and noted that I'd checked, 'Widowed', as my 'relationship status'.

Poor guy.

I've been sitting here, for two hours, putting off answering him, because I FUCKING CAN'T. I ACTUALLY CAN'T. He's a really nice person and I don't want to do this to him, so I'm doing it HERE. Lucky you. ♥

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*Off to the races, as well