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Dec. 10th, 2011 05:24 amAlrighty. Slept thru yesterday, and most of last night - man, I needed it, too. It's still difficult for me NOT to see sleep as a waste of time, though. There's always a million things I'm supposed to be doing, that aint getting done. Always.
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When did I become so socially awkward? So stammering and inept? I couldn't WAIT to get away from work's annual Christmas breakfast, on Thursday morning. These are people I see every day, practically, and am enmeshed with in some super-tense, super-stressful situations, and yet...Odd. The perils of small talk.
It was also brought sharply home to me, when asked the question by some past-coworkers-who've-escaped, "So what's new with you? How've you been?", that I need a pat standard response; some new sort of pre-fab, made-up answer. I was wholly unprepared, and stumbled and fumbled around the basic, "Oh, same-old, same-old." Also, explaining why my son is "still" not in college - and has just lost his job - was lots of fun. Telling the truth is for the birds, sometimes.
The 'best' part was during our traditional 'Yankee Swap' - as popularized in The Office, lol - when I 'stole' Melody's candle. I've never done this before. She was obviously shocked, and actually stood up and hissed ('jokingly', of course) that, "If I was taking the candle, that I have to take this (the wrapping tissue), too!" - and threw it at me in a big white wad. It was all in good fun, but my face flamed as red as could be - IE: of my new social ills, if there ever was one. Ever-paranoid, I reign. Everything's such a big deal, 'Carrie White'-moment, in my head, these days.
"You're soft. This world's going to chew you up and spit you out.", Sheldon Cooper, S05E11
This is the conservative MennoniteSadist nurse who's ALWAYS been the Prince John to my Robin Hood, and well knows it...but I swear that's NOT why I did it. The candle is a WoodWick, and smells amazingly of biscotti. I did what I had to do.
Even MORE weird - on the way out, she stopped me to tell me that I was 'really going to enjoy that candle', as she'd bought a bunch of them for her daughters-in-law, blah blah blah - SO. SHE PICKED HER OWN GIFT IN YANKEE SWAP? Um.
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Currently, I feel I need a refresher course on, a) my Secret World Live DVD, b) So SO much Cure, c) the Ye Olde Propaganda films - those were the days, d) going out in public and interacting with people.
GOT to get some Christmas shopping done, at some point, today..
*~*~*
When did I become so socially awkward? So stammering and inept? I couldn't WAIT to get away from work's annual Christmas breakfast, on Thursday morning. These are people I see every day, practically, and am enmeshed with in some super-tense, super-stressful situations, and yet...Odd. The perils of small talk.
It was also brought sharply home to me, when asked the question by some past-coworkers-who've-escaped, "So what's new with you? How've you been?", that I need a pat standard response; some new sort of pre-fab, made-up answer. I was wholly unprepared, and stumbled and fumbled around the basic, "Oh, same-old, same-old." Also, explaining why my son is "still" not in college - and has just lost his job - was lots of fun. Telling the truth is for the birds, sometimes.
The 'best' part was during our traditional 'Yankee Swap' - as popularized in The Office, lol - when I 'stole' Melody's candle. I've never done this before. She was obviously shocked, and actually stood up and hissed ('jokingly', of course) that, "If I was taking the candle, that I have to take this (the wrapping tissue), too!" - and threw it at me in a big white wad. It was all in good fun, but my face flamed as red as could be - IE: of my new social ills, if there ever was one. Ever-paranoid, I reign. Everything's such a big deal, 'Carrie White'-moment, in my head, these days.
"You're soft. This world's going to chew you up and spit you out.", Sheldon Cooper, S05E11
This is the conservative Mennonite
Even MORE weird - on the way out, she stopped me to tell me that I was 'really going to enjoy that candle', as she'd bought a bunch of them for her daughters-in-law, blah blah blah - SO. SHE PICKED HER OWN GIFT IN YANKEE SWAP? Um.
*~*~*
Currently, I feel I need a refresher course on, a) my Secret World Live DVD, b) So SO much Cure, c) the Ye Olde Propaganda films - those were the days, d) going out in public and interacting with people.
GOT to get some Christmas shopping done, at some point, today..
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