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Eta: Wow...did I fuck up that 'warning label' meme! Sorry about that...have no idea wtf I did.

Frankly, nothing would surprise me anymore.

BodyGardener. Remember that 'nap' I was gonna take at 6:30? I didn't get up until almost 11:30....my son was thoroughly disgusted with me, lol.

Weird.

Just had a Viggo dream, of all things. It was some huge gala event for him, and I remember that his girlfriend was there, and she kept staring at me -- not in a rude way..Nice, she seemed, kinda Jessica Simpson-type-airheaded; but was this freckle-faced strawberry blonde that looked about fourteen..she actually came over to him in the audience and was sitting on his lap, giggling in the spotlight. I was embarrassed, because at first I thought it was HIS SON'S date, lol..somehow, this dream depressed me a little. I mean, after all...as Robert Smith put it, 'I am NONE of these things..' -- and never will be again. I just have to settle for ALONE now..and that is okay, really; I have Pete.

Men suck anyway; at least the ones *I* like do.

I know I should be sleeping..my sleep cycle is allll weirded out. That 'little nap' business last night threw me off..It is strange being up in daylight. I am so glad that I took my son to freakin' FunCoLand yesterday..he bought an old 64 setup (his had gone kablooey), and set it up himself with the television in his room..and is having this big revival with all his old 64 games, lol. Bless his heart.

Oh! Good news. The Man's 401k check came in the mail. FINALLY. Along with two unemployment checks. Add mine to that, and I can pay some shit this week..Huzzah! Got to keep my eyes peeled for tickets, though..Ya never know.

Stolen from Piccalo..

You're a Speak & Spell!! You nerd, you. Just
because you were disguised as a toy doesn't
mean you weren't educational, you sneaky
bastard.


What childhood toy from the 80s are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

Just typical.

Crossposted..

Getting a freakin' ulcer, waiting for Cure tickets.

It's weird as hell this time around, 'cos it has become a tradition over the years, to go with my friend, Athena.

Well, the past two years have been extremely difficult for her..she had a total nervous breakdown; ***held a few hostages at gunpoint***..and spent time in both a mental hospital and halfway house...In which time, I spent mucho panic trying to locate her as she floundered awash in 'the system'....

Well, NOW she has gotten RELIGION in a BIG WAY...But *still* wants to see the Cure..EVEN THOUGH she suffers from EXTREME claustrophobia (can't DO crowds at all) and various physical ailments which prevent her from walking well, etc...

I honestly don't know if I can take it.

But, I am obligated, you know.

I love her, what can I do..It has been so fucking hard; watching her slow descent, and not being able to change it. She used to be my fuckin' hero..this is the grrl that hitchiked/backpacked all over Europe by herself..I have learned so much from her. She used to be fearless..used to be a downright pistol..and now? She is..just someone else.

She is freaking out ALREADY just over the drive here..but, so far, there are no dates closer to her.

At our age? She needs someone to take care of her. I am always the caretaker..of, like, everyone. But at shows gone past..we always had an agreement; to meet at such and such exit after the show...as I was always the one to get upfront. IT IS THE QUEST, AFTER ALL. She tried it once in NYC, and the guards beat her up..it pissed me off so much.

I guess it is not so much about THE QUEST anymore, as I have certainly had my time in the sun with The Boys..it is about so much more..and how much they have meant to us, on so many levels.

I just got to get tickets.

..............

I just called her. I don't know, maybe I shouldn't have. She was really confused, and got verreh agitated when I said that there still weren't any dates closer to her. She got upset re: drive, and I said that it was up to her if she wants to go..that I would not be angry/upset or anything..and that I would certainly get her a teeshirt. I will, too, you know.

I just said that I would get her a ticket ANYWAY, and that I can always sell it if she changes her mind about going.

It is just so sad.