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[correctiveshoes621]

Waaah, waah, waah.
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I hate being uneducated. I hate being stupid. Or, moreso, being 'paperless'.

I hate when people just assume that I went to college, and the look on their faces when I tell them I didn't.

I hate not having good stories to tell about dormrooms and lectures or whatever the hell college-educated people talk about. As I said, I wouldn't know.

Sure, there's the fact that neither Robert Smith nor peter gabriel went to college. But it doesn't change the fact that the rest of the world HAS, and with them? I'd have nothing to talk about..nothing of import or wit or value to add.

It's all I've ever had, really. My brain. It was my THING, being 'smart' ('cos my sister 'got the looks') - skipping a grade and winning scholarships and all that bullshit..but, now - at this age, it's caught up to me - and it's driven home to me DAILY how pathetically unwrinkled, stomach-turningly smooth my brain has become, by comparison.

And OH, HELL, YEAH; I hate the MOST ironic fact that the one person I really, really admire came from a privileged, yuppie, private-schools-into-college background - which is exactly what I MARRIED - and RUINED MY LIFE...and told me endlessly to just forget becoming educated and being more than..well, more than THIS.

I couldn't even hold a conversation with this person. Not, really.

OH, and 'O the Irony' #572?

If I TRIED to go back? If I TRIED to become 'educated'?




I'd fuckin' *BE* Jerri Blank. And that makes me sick to my stomach.

...and even Chuck Noblet is smarter than me. What's THAT tellya?





I get SO SO SICK of women at work who yammer on endlessly about their kids, their kids, this great recipe for whatnot and their kids..."Little Braden did this..and little Chelsea did that..", and wonder why they think that THAT is the ONLY thing that they've ever done of import and is THEREFORE...ALL THERE IS.

I mean, even cockroaches can procreate. I did. Twice. But I just can't imagine that there isn't MORE.

It's the only thing I've ever wanted. To be MORE.



...and then? I talked to Bev on the phone. Who's going through chemo for third-stage Hodgkins. And feel even WORSE.

The NERVE of me.

So, PLEASE. No sympathy.

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[gayalithiel.livejournal.com]

There is so much I wanna say in response to this post, but other people said a lot of it as well as I could. For some reason your college fixation hits a nerve with me in that it reminds me of Michelle the Evil Medical Records Clerk ™ and the way she used to give me shit about having gone to college, like it should make me perfect or something. I think maybe people who haven't been to college imagine it as more than it is. Unless you go to a prestigious university, all it means is that you (or someone helping, if you're lucky) are paying for more years of school stuff to get a degree and be considered 'more hireable' or something. In a 4 year school the first 2 years are usually just more basic classes that have nothing to do with the field you want to major in. I walked away from college with a degree, a license and complete ignorance about the real world. The most valuable things I learned were once I was out in the field and DOING, not in the classroom. In fact, as I look back now, I can't think of too many things that college gave me a big leg up on. It just opens doors, jobwise.

Also? My husband has no college degree...and he makes the same amount as I do, with a college degree and almost 20 years experience. So I ask you, where is the justice in that?

Furthermore, no college-educated man worth talking to would snub someone because they hadn't gone to college. If they did...they weren't worth talking to in the first place because that would make them SHALLOW. There are brilliant people everywhere who never went to college. Some who never got past 8th grade! It ain't everything.

But I won't pretend it's not important to you, because it obviously is. A college degree might've offered you better career opportunities...but it wouldn't have made you a lick smarter than you are right now. *Hand up to God*

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[indiwise.livejournal.com]

*flails*

*panics, runs around in circles*

YES, IT WOULD! I KNOW IT WOULD!

(Issue of the Day #936)

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