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[correctiveshoes621]

What *is* it about the Cure that clears a room?

I honestly don't get it.

Sometimes, I wish someone understood..but most times..ahh..Fuck it.



'J slash esS-ence'


I feel your eyes,

and night rushes in around me --

sudden and trembling and huge;

smothering now,

all the green progress mine,

towards the death I've always called, 'Normal'..


That so-naive notion

of, at last,

fitting in; of blending away into fake,

the vicious erasing of my innate WRONGness..

that sweet tang of 'other' I leave in my wake..

..my leftness of center of gravity-skewed...

'til I was long-gone..

and, alas..so were you..


It was only to please the unpleasable...

I tried, I did; I....tried.


That much too-large costume;

the pastels, they grate..

So obviously fashioned for someone I'd hate --

I toss it aside -- with a hiss

and some spitting

and scream to the sky..

'cos it never did fit right.



Drowning me backwards, I fall-lazy-fall;

headlong into memories, thought long-dashed to gone.

..of proud private bleeding,

and lone nighttime shakes

..heavy fists against glass, and the music it makes;

all broken inside me..

The blossoming grows,

..and I revel, a mad thing;

the shards twinkle and glow....

and cut

like warm butter

into shade-flesh that KNOWS;

my blood-brother.



The wall you now wear

like some tight, fierce-wound chain;

grown sharper, these years away --

the curve of your pain..

The instant-deep stabbing of bitter, that gaze;

and such ANGER, so heavy,

it strips down and flays

loose

the long-lost Alone,

that strange boy in your face;

Yeah, the one in mine, too --


-- Never DID know 'His Place'.


Scent of leather and spice and

patchouli and sweat,

hides the stench of cold-panic..

'cos that's what we get --

STUPID, STUPID, I stutter inside me -- you bet;

for believing.

Comments

[bratqueen8.livejournal.com]

I was listening to Cure Mixed-up on my way home from work. I had the cassette long time ago, but it broke and with the advent of CD players, I eventually bought that. Sucky thing is: the CD does NOT have "Why Can't I be You?", yet the cassette DID.

WTF?

Anyhoo, I always liked "The Forest" - but lately I have a new appreciation for it, and now LOVE it.

What's the latest with the Mystery Camden Date?

[indiwise.livejournal.com]

No word yet. And it is getting dangerously close to the cut-off date for the schedule at work....and now I have to take off for the #$%^& B-52 concert......grumble, grumble..

[bratqueen8.livejournal.com]

Yeah, really...how many weeks in advance to they have to sell the tickets for a bing deal like Curiosa?

Well, the B's should be a good show. I'm kinda pissed cause I wanted to see Incubus w/The Vines at the Taj Mahal June 24th, but I'm so sure the tix are sold out. That should be a fucking blast...ah my luck. Maybe Interpol will come to the Borgata or something? Yeah, I know...keep dreaming, brat.

[indiwise.livejournal.com]

Irritating, isn't it?
And yeah..the B's will be great...VENUE IS ATLANTIC CITY, lol. We grew up on them..I found them, and introduced all my gay family to them...there are so few of us left now (we are down to five..)..and three of us are going -- Frankie got tickets for Pete and my birthday coming up...our birthdays are on the same day, 'O course.

[bratqueen8.livejournal.com]

*BOING*

ATLANTIC CITY, you say???

Where and when? Maybe I can get tix and meet up with you guys?

Hmmmm...usually I hear this stuff on the radio but I think I'll do some searching...

[indiwise.livejournal.com]

Heheheh..I *think* it is the Trump Taj Mahal...not sure..but I DO know that it is July 24th, heheh. Let me know, 'kay?