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correctiveshoes621) wrote2013-12-31 01:05 am
correctiveshoes621) wrote2013-12-31 01:05 am
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I just got a text from my coworker.
Mon Bernard 'went on the wind', early this past Saturday morning.
Without me. While I was in such horrible fucking pain. Dammit. I KNEW this was going to happen; I did. I should have been there. I hope to God that someone was with him. I hope he wasn't alone. I hope the light was left on, for him.
I didn't even get to say, 'Au revoir'.
I know that this is what he wanted, and, for that, I am glad. But, DAMMIT DAMMIT DAMMIT DAMMIT DAMMIT..there really aren't any words, right now.
ETA: I've searched and searched online for any sort of obituary or notice of a service. Nothing. It's like he just disappeared.
Mon Bernard 'went on the wind', early this past Saturday morning.
Without me. While I was in such horrible fucking pain. Dammit. I KNEW this was going to happen; I did. I should have been there. I hope to God that someone was with him. I hope he wasn't alone. I hope the light was left on, for him.
I didn't even get to say, 'Au revoir'.
I know that this is what he wanted, and, for that, I am glad. But, DAMMIT DAMMIT DAMMIT DAMMIT DAMMIT..there really aren't any words, right now.
ETA: I've searched and searched online for any sort of obituary or notice of a service. Nothing. It's like he just disappeared.